Why not me?

When I went to pick up Lauren from Sunday School this week, I was greeted with good news: Lauren went to the bathroom for one of the teachers!

Though I did praise Lauren for the accomplishment, I shared a different sentiment with the teacher. I was so glad my daughter went for her, and Lauren will almost always go for my husband Matt, but she usually fights me.

I’m sure my frustration was palpable. Why them and not me?

It struck me on the way home that I often treat God the same way.

When an issue is weighing on my mind, I talk about it to my husband and maybe to my mom or a friend. When something is driving me crazy, I might dish with a bystander. When I’ve had a bad day, everyone else is aware. When something wonderful happens or my kids do something super cute, I immediate upload the photo to Facebook or text my husband to share.

But do I go to my Heavenly Father in the process? Is He the first and primary person I go to?

Sadly, I think God is often left asking the same question I get frustrated with Lauren about: Why not me?

I spend more time with Lauren than anyone else. My full-time job is taking care of our family, and Lauren and I spend the bulk of our day together. You would think that would warrant a better response when it comes to potty-training. Yet, I get more screaming, tears and tantrums than anyone else when it comes to working on this particular skill.

Potty-training can become very interesting while playing dress-up.

God spends more time with me than anyone else does. He promised me He would never leave me or forsake me, so He is always there. We spend every moment together. You would think that would result in a different response during challenges and frustrations, or moments of joy. Yet, I am sure God experiences more attitude from me than anyone else sees.

In a strange way, my plight with Lauren is making me more aware of how I relate with Jesus throughout the day. Now, it’s going to be hard for me not to think of my Savior and pray to Him during the struggles I have with my daughter in the bathroom. And, despite my failures, I want Lauren to see God’s grace and enduring patience as I help her through this process.

I am sure of this, that He who started a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

– Philippians 1:6

Keeping the light on

Scripture crumb from Leviticus 24:1-4

The Lord spoke to Moses: “Command the Israelites to bring you pure oil from crushed olives for the light, in order to keep the lamp burning continually. Aaron is to tend it continually from evening until morning before the Lord outside the veil of the testimony in the tent of meeting. This is a permanent statute throughout your generations. He must continually tend the lamps on the pure gold lampstand in the Lord’s presence.

Aaron was to continually keep the lamps burning in the Holy Place – a permanent statute throughout all generations. There would then always be light in the Lord’s presence.

My high priest, Jesus Christ, also forever will keep tending the light that emanates from His presence. There is no darkness with Him. He is always at work, constantly listening to my prayers and acting on my behalf. He is forgiving, cleansing, redeeming, rescuing, listening, healing and refining. The light is always on because Jesus is always interceding for me.

So, when it seems like darkness is all around, suffocating me, I must turn to Jesus’ light that never goes out. When I feel like I am praying and praying with no result or answer, I must remember that Jesus is listening and at work, even if I cannot yet see.

God is always present. He never leaves me. He sees me, He protects me and He guides me.

His lamp, like His love, is never extinguished.