Too old for naps

Jackson recently decided that naps are no longer necessary.

Who has time to nap when there is so much playing to do?

After going to battle over naptime for several days in a row, which only served to wear me out, it was time to change strategies. We instituted “quiet time.”

Sometime during Lauren’s afternoon nap, Jackson has quiet time for about 30 to 45 minutes in his room. The only rule is that he must be quiet. Otherwise, he can play to his heart’s content.

During his first quiet time, Jackson played hard. Though I could hear him, it wasn’t loud enough to wake up his sister, so I let it be. I had a monster headache, so I actually took a nap.

When my alarm went off to notify me that Jackson’s quiet time was up, the house was strangely still. I went to Jackson’s door and listened. Then I cracked the door. As I pushed the door open wide, Jackson’s room was empty, minus scattered toys. Was he playing hide and seek, ready to pounce and scare me? I looked in the closet and around the room again, and Jackson wasn’t there. I had a momentary panic trying to ascertain whether I slept so hard I didn’t hear him sneak out of his room or go outside. “Jackson, where are you?” I asked out loud. There was no answer. I turned to leave the room and begin frantically searching for him, when a little fist on the floor caught my eye.

I slowly bent down, and there was Jackson fast asleep under his train table, perfectly hidden.


Jackson asleep under his train table

I’ve found him like this several times now. Because taking a nap is on his terms, he often decides he is tired and just crawls into his bed and closes his eyes.

Jackson wasn’t as grown up as he thought. And, that was okay!

We may need to learn the same lesson. Often we take on too many projects, get too little sleep, try to please everyone. We compare ourselves to others. We think we can handle things on our own, or that we’ve moved past a situation. So, we independently make the decision to push forward. And we find out we may not be as “grown up” as we thought.

We get frustrated when it doesn’t go our way or it is too big for us to shoulder alone, and then fight with God for what we want. Could it be that sometimes God gives us the freedom we ask for but cannot handle in order to clearly show us our need for Him?

God cares more about our submission to His authority and loving provision than success according to the world’s standards, or our own for that matter. He desires for us to bend to His will because we trust Him wholeheartedly with our lives.

Let’s stop fighting it. We need a nap!

We need Jesus.

First day

After his first morning of preschool, Jackson sits on a bench outside the elementary school to show me the ocean he made.

There is nothing like first days to drive you to your knees.

Jackson began preschool today, and like most moms I think I was just as nervous as him. It is a wonderful and aching feeling to watch your child grow up. As we prayed together in the car before going into the school, hearing my son talk to his Heavenly Father was so precious. He walked bravely through the halls to his classroom, though I know he was a little scared, and marched right up to his teacher to inform her of a few things before he went off to play. Snapping a few photos of him wearing his new backpack felt so momentous.

I could tell I wasn’t the only mom who was definitely looking forward to seeing her baby, I mean preschooler, and hearing about their first day, as we all stood outside the school waiting to pick them up mid-day. The class came streaming out to open arms and hugs and kisses, as they all clamored to share their stories of the morning.

As we have been preparing for this day, I have found myself praying more and more fervently for my son as he enters this new world:

  • that God would guard his heart and keep it tender for what is true, noble, right, pure,  lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy.
  • that Jackson would be kind, friendly and polite to those around him.
  • that his friends would be positive influences in his life, and that God would protect those children and bring their moms and dads into a saving relationships with Him.
  • that God would strengthen and shower his teacher with wisdom, patience and grace.
  • that his teacher would help Jackson to learn and encourage his curiosity and creativity.
  • that Jackson would know, more than ever, that God is with him and loves him.

As the years pass, and first days of school come and go, I know my heart will echo these prayers again and again.

Jackson and me getting ready to leave for his first day of preschool, and after four years we still love being cheek to cheek!

Jackson and me on my first Mother's Day in 2007. As most parents will say, I can't believe how fast they grow up!