Back to it

New Years is the time of year most people become resolved to change or set and strive for fresh goals. But for me as a stay-at-home mom and ministry leader, back-to-school time is the golden ticket!

My sweet kiddos started a new school year yesterday, and in many ways my year begins again, too.

Seriously. Have you seen sweeter kids?

It’s time to get back to it!

I’ve missed posting here on my blog. For the past year, I’ve allowed my ministry to-do list to crowd out my writing time. This fall, I’d like to change that, because God uses blogging in my life to punctuate how He is at work in the details all around me.

Earlier this year, knowing what God was calling me to, I asked Him to increase my capacity (aka the prayer of Jabez in 1 Chronicles 4:10). The vision He had given was impossible to achieve without His presence and power — and Him stretching me even further in faith. God answered that prayer by giving me more to do and more people to love and serve. That’s just like God! 😉

I can say truthfully I haven’t “handled” it all well. I’ve made mistakes. I’ve burnt out in my own strength. And, God has allowed me late this summer to solely focus on my first ministry — my family — to rejuvenate my heart and clarify my priorities.

What God calls us to, He equips us to do. But you know how He does that? It isn’t that God suddenly gives you new skills or management techniques or aligns all your people in an orderly manner so that leadership is easy. He gives us Himself. He requires us to be with Him, stand with Him, depend on Him, trust in Him, and release control so He can work — in US.

That’s why I want to get back to recording God’s words and encouragement here in blog form. I want God to keep me on my toes, recognizing His work in the details of life so that I can stand firm in Christ, as He calls me in Ephesians 6:10-20 (note all times we are urged to “stand”). And, I want to be able to share with you the amazing blessing and miracle it is that God chooses to move and make Himself evident in our everyday lives — the places that real life happens, those in-between moments that define us.

This restart may not be perfect. It’s a beginning, again. That sounds a lot like grace.

Thanks for joining me in the journey!

Love Capacity

Lauren fell asleep almost immediately during our drive this morning

On the way home this morning from Bible study, I turned to glance at Lauren as I pulled out of the parking lot to find she was already fast asleep. The image of her peaceful, beautiful face went straight to my heart.

Do you have moments where you look at your child and are amazed by how your capacity to love them grows past what you thought possible?

I absolutely love my daughter, and watching her in my rearview mirror as she slept reminded me of what an indescribable blessing she is to me.

Every night, I pray that God will watch over Lauren and Jackson. Does His heart swell like mine as we watch them dream? Does He feel the same way about me that I do with my children?

How big the heart of God must be! Before He set time and this world in motion, He knew each of us, and loved us so completely and with such a capacity that He made up His mind to sacrifice His only Son to save us.

His great love makes it possible for me to love. His love created me, and created my children.

His love makes me want to love more and to love better. As God fills me with His love, and my love for Him deepens, my capacity to love my family increases.

And every day, even in car rides home, my love grows for my family, and in turn my love for God expands in gratitude.